Irony!

Well I did a wee bit of shopping today. Spent lots, but made some too. I sold my old bike for a brand new one. Beautiful it is. I love my Duke. Not alot has been happening really. I have a few orders for some custom artwork done and a new statue request. There is some new tour place opening a few towns away from me. Its a ghost tour/vampire guest house tour thing. Apparently there is a really old home there that some believe housed a coven of witches or vampires or some other rumoured being. They want a vampire statue made by a vampire! Oh if only they knew. Talk about irony. However, my perception of a vampire is probably so far off theirs it isn't funny. But I am sure I will work it out.

In my plight of this one painting, a wonderful collegue of mine wants to give this painting to his wife for their wedding anniversary. I have free rein and can do what I like with it, but his only request.... my idea of love. HA! I think he is a comedian too. My idea of love is jumping on the duke and taking off for hours on end and just gunning it at my leisure. How on earth am I supposed to paint love when I can't even let love into my heart? I've never been real good at commitment with anyone. The only love I know is for my family, coven and friends. Intimate love? You got to be kidding me right. That is more than I can deal with. How can one fall in love with another if she doesn't know how to share her life? How can I fall in love with someone who is not of my own?

I see my family and friends falling in love or are already in love, and yes I would like that too.... someday. Someday very very far away! One must put their other before themselves. I can't do that I'm way to selfish at this point in my life for that. So again, how can one have an image of love, if they do not know love?